bramlouisgreenfeld:

i have not watched this and the plot seems. surprisingly specific so i’ve adopted Various Little Parts of the plot for andreil bc i love aus where they’re friends as kids. even if i could have chosen another pairing. i don’t care. i know what i’m doing. anyway this is really long OOPS

• they’ve known each other forever. neil doesn’t know a world without andrew in it, and andrew doesn’t know what the world is without someone who can find immediately the most dangerous situation and make it worse. neil is oblivious to everything, but andrew is his only constant and he’s sure he likes that. andrew knows why he’s by neil’s side. it doesn’t change anything.
• and then it kind of does. neil drinks, for once, and then he’s hanging on andrew’s side because andrew’s safe and he can only drink if he feels that kind of safe. and there’s talking, and laughing, and andrew’s even almost smiling, and neil’s happy. and then there’s a dare or a bet and they’re not there anymore. they’re on the roof and andrew smells like smoke and home and-
• then neil doesn’t remember.
• he just knows something’s changed, because there’s something different between him and andrew, but he doesn’t know what he did. he’s uncertain, which he has never been about andrew, and that kind of fucking sucks

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