happy march 9th! for you all don’t know today is the day that the text on neil’s phone read 0 and he was taken from the foxes by his father’s men. here is my sixth aftg fansong appropriately titled “march 9th”. i’ve been a little under the weather with a head cold so my voice is a bit of a mess but i wanted to share with you all on this special day! 

as always a big thanks to @reneewvlkers​ for putting up with me and my constant badgering and to @korakos​ for writing such a fantastic series that has been an inspiration in my life. 

you can find my other songs here on my tumblr or here on my soundcloud <3

lyrics below the cut:

you wait around
the hour is now
it was counting down
to a disaster, that you knew

but you were trapped
your decision was final
can’t say goodbye
or announce their arrival

strike out in a game you knew
you never could win

there was no shouting there was
no way of warning him

well, except
thank you x3
and i’m sorry that i can’t be 
the person that i promised

you were amazing
you changed me
into who i am today
but i’m still just a runaway

no more hiding or 
running from the past
no more denying who you are
or that the shadow that cast

is larger than the lives
stuffed inside your small frame

with icy eyes, fiery hair
and different names

as you trace into your palm
a key you called your home

you decide to let go
of the name you call you own  

thank you x3
and i’m sorry, i can’t be 
the person who i wanted to

you were amazing
you saved me
and gave me a place to stay
you’re the reason i let them take me away

your father’s name
burned into your mind
your mother’s pain
plays before your eyes

is this real or
is this just the same as before

how do you feel not hat
you’ve locked and closed the door?

thank you x3
and i’m sorry, i can’t stay 
and hide behind my name

we were amazing
but it can’t be
with my father’s history
he’ll burn down my new family tree

you try to stay calm
as they carve into your soul

you’ve finally let go
of the name you call your own

your father’s given name
is placed in front of your choice

now screams and silent pleas
are all that’s left of your voice